Tuesday, March 24, 2015

twelve weeks.

 I had a doctor's appointment yesterday, and wasn't planning on the doctor giving me an ultrasound, but he did and it was such a pleasant surprise.  I loved seeing that our baby got bigger, and looks more like a baby this time. :)  It was doing flips and turns - I got all teary eyed because I'm a crybaby.  The doctor (who isn't my normal doctor I usually see) thought it was my first baby and was surprised when I said it was my third.  He said "you'd think it was your first with how excited you are!"  I can honestly say all of these pregnancy milestones get no less exciting each time.  I love growing these sweet babies!

I wish I could tell you my morning sickness is all gone - but it's definitely still present.  Some days I think it might be getting better, but then it shows up again.  I find that I just need to eat small meals throughout the day, and walk a lot. I also fainted for the third time last week, this time at home with the girls by myself.  Steve thankfully works two minutes away and came to save the day!  I also keep on losing weight, which is a little worrisome, but my doctor said as long as I don't lose 5% of my body weight to not worry.  I've also been really exhausted in the early afternoon every day, but luckily I can sneak a nap in if I really need to while Kate naps, and Aubrey watches a show.  Even if I just lay down and close my eyes, it helps a ton!  I swear I need to do a post about how to survive a rough first trimester with little ones.  I guess I can sum it up as: read lots of books in bed, have them bring games to you in bed, stay in pajamas the whole day if needed, and paper dishes are your friend.  Oh, and don't ever clean or cook.  Haha!  A good, patient husband helps a lot on that one ;)  I swear Steve is the new housewife around here and while it makes me feel so guilty, I know he doesn't mind and appreciates what I have to go through to bring these cute babies in the world.  And man do I appreciate him!  I know this all will soon pass and then I can make it up to the kids/husband for the past couple months that I've been a zombie mommy/wife.  

We get to find out the gender in three weeks and I'm SO excited!  We always go to an early ultrasound place so we can know as soon as possible.  Everything feels so much more real once you know the gender - and you get to shop. :)  I can't wait!!

The girls are still being so sweet about the new addition, Kate feeds my belly her sippy cup sometimes and says, "I feed the baby, Mama."  Aubrey always gives us name suggestions, and constantly asks us when she gets to hold the baby.  Six months is such a long time for a kid!  I can't wait to have three.  I may be a little too confident this time around, because I'm not the least bit nervous.  I was super nervous for my first baby, then super nervous about having two, but I feel so seasoned now.  Haha!  I've just learned you go with the flow and it all works out.  I'm mostly excited to fall in love all over again.  That "love high" that you're on the first few weeks after having a baby is like nothing else.  

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

third time's a charm.

It's about that time again!  Baby number three will be here in early October and we are absolutely thrilled.

We found out at the end of January, after months and months of trying.  We had done a few rounds of Clomid after trying for quite a while, (my body doesn't ovulate on it's own), and my doctor was only giving us one last shot before sending us to Infertility. (which our insurance doesn't cover a penny of).  I tried not to get my hopes up, but oh were they up.  I didn't have one single pregnancy symptom, but since I just had to know, I got up super early, snuck downstairs, and took the test.  Two pink lines immediately started showing up.  I gasped, I sobbed happy tears, & instantly dropped to my knees in a prayer of gratitude.  Each time I have ever taken a pregnancy test, I've been alone.  I love those quiet moments to myself where only I know.  They only last a few minutes though - I can't hold it in for long!

I wish I could be one of those patient people that announce their pregnancies in a cute way to their husbands - but I just could not wait.  I ran upstairs, woke him up, waved that pee stick in his face, and said, "Babe!  We're pregnant!"  He was thrilled, but a few seconds later rolled over to fall back asleep. :)  I spent the rest of the morning (it was like 5:30 am) figuring out when my due date would be, and just couldn't stop smiling.  I had a photography session a few hours later that morning and was on such a high - they probably thought I was acting so strange.  I was SO, SO happy!

A few weeks later we had our first ultrasound.  Since I had been feeling totally fine, I was extremely nervous it wouldn't go well.  Before Aubrey, I had a miscarriage (blighted ovum), and it was one of the hardest things I have ever gone through.  I also have less than stellar progesterone levels, so I'm always nervous before these appointments.  After feeling sick all morning for the first time in the pregnancy, we went in for the ultrasound and saw that beautiful little baby's heart flicker up on the screen.  Always such an amazing moment!

Isn't that the cutest little blog of grey pixels you've ever seen?!

Since I had Gestational Diabetes with Aubrey, the doctor tested me early this time.  I was SO sad to find out I have it again.  I thought I might get lucky since I didn't have it with Kate.  I have to stick to a strict diet plan (barely any carbs or sugar! wahh!), and also poke my finger with a needle four times  a day to keep track of my blood sugar levels.  Not fun - but I know that GD is mild in comparison to other complications that are possible in pregnancy, so I'm trying to stay positive and count my blessings.

Since the day of my ultrasound, I have been pretty sick.  I have fainted twice, (I have fainted in past pregnancies, so nothing new here), and have been extremely nauseous in the afternoon and night.  I've only thrown up a few times, but sometimes the nausea is so bad I WISH I could throw up just to make it go away.  I ended up putting my photography business on hold and canceling on a lot of (thankfully understanding) clients.  I just did not feel comfortable handling a newborn for 2-3 hours in a hot room, when I have been fainting and having such bad nausea.  I can't wait to get back to it once I feel better!  To be honest, as much as morning sickness just plain sucks, it puts my mind at ease because I always hear that it hints towards a healthy baby.  I haven't fainted in a few weeks, and I'm needing my stash of Saltines a little less often each day, so I'm hoping it subsides soon.

We told the girls right away, and they are so so excited!  Kate is just barely old enough to understand what is happening.  Aubrey wants a baby brother and Kate wants a baby sister.  The other day, Aubrey said, "I think the baby is just dancing around in there, singing "I like to move it, move it!" Haha!  My belly has been well loved with lots of kisses.  They are going to be the best big sisters ever.  I'm kind of excited for a bigger age gap this time.  I'll have two little helpers with me that i just know will be in love with that baby.

I was so overwhelmed and filled with gratitude after announcing our pregnancy on social media yesterday - we are so blessed to have so much support and wonderful people in our lives that love us and are so thrilled for us.  You would think this whole pregnancy thing gets less exciting after a couple times - but I swear I'm as excited as the first time!  It's fun knowing what to expect - I cannot WAIT to fall in love all over again this October.

Monday, March 9, 2015

number three!

So…this is happening!!!

Thursday, March 5, 2015


Four four four.  She's four now!  I still have to pinch myself sometimes that she is mine.

A few things about my four year old: 

She's very social.  She loves kids, but can be shy at first.  

She's as sweet as candy.  Everyone warned me how bad age three was, but it was my favorite year yet.  (Don't worry, she gave me a run for my money at age one and two so I earned this!)  She really is a good girl and rarely gets in any trouble.  I lucked out with this one!

She is a picky eater, but I never have to worry about her not getting enough nutrients.  She LOVES bell peppers and apples.  She snacks on them all day, which makes me feel a bit better when she only has two bites of dinner sometimes.

She's a little goof and loves to make us laugh. 

She loves My Little Pony, Disney princesses, Shopkins, & can spend hours entertaining herself playing with them.  She has a creative mind and I love that.

She gets embarrassed sometimes and it reminds me how old she is getting.  

She is a complete Daddy's girl.  He told me to make sure I include that in her birthday post :)  They have such a special relationship.  I'm so grateful my girls have such a good dad. 

Since she has started Primary at church, she is ALWAYS talking about things she learned.  One day, Steve and I were talking to each other in the car and she thought we were fighting because we sounded serious, and she said, "The Holy Ghost says, STOP!".  We also heard a loud noise come from outside one day and she said, "Oh, the Holy Ghost is speaking to me."

Don't ask.  She said, "Take a picture of me sleeping.  I want to see what I look like."  Ok then!  Let me get some of those lips, Aubrey.

Kate is her best friend, and worst enemy sometimes too. :)  I constantly am hearing them giggle together and play…and yes, fight sometimes, too!  I must admit, watching their relationship grow makes me jealous I never had a sister!

We still do our own "school" thing a couple times a week, and she has learned to write all her letters and what sounds they make.  Lately we have been working on numbers/counting, and cutting with scissors and other dexterity activities. She will probably start preschool this Fall (not positive yet) and it makes me sad but excited for her!

She still loves games so much and we are constantly playing Old Maid, Candyland, Match, & Go Fish in this house.  She actually beats me more than I like to admit!

I can't wait to see what four brings our sweet Aubrey girl.  She's turning out to be one amazing little girl and I love getting to know her and more and more as she grows!  She made me a mama four years ago and I couldn't be more thankful for her. 

Monday, February 16, 2015

our love day.

Since Steve has the unconventional work schedule of working every Saturday, we celebrated a few nights early on Thursday.  He took me to our favorite restaurant, Sutter Street Steakhouse in Folsom.  BEST steak & shrimp of my life.  

I'll never forget our first Valentine's Day together.  Steve had gotten his wisdom teeth out the same day, but somehow he still managed to take me to our church's Valentine's Day dance, mouth full of gauze and all.  He's always known how much I love this silly holiday and done his best to make it special or me.  Love this man!

I stayed up late the night before playing Cupid for the girls.  They LOVED it all!

We started off the morning with a simple, festive breakfast.  Heart shaped pancakes, heart watermelon on a stick, & pink milk.  Excuse the awful lighting/color in these pictures - my girls get up at an ungodly hour where there is no natural light in the house!

Later in the day, we baked some strawberry cupcakes.  These little girls LOVE to bake with me.  They could be having a cranky day, and the second you mention baking to them they instantly perk up.  I love baking too - I love that there is exact measurements and hard to mess it up.  

We didn't do much the rest of the day besides play outside, (it was beautiful out) some Valentine making, & my parents came over for lunch.  We ended our day watching a movie while we waited for Daddy to get home.  We had a great, simple day celebrating love. 

Saturday, February 14, 2015

happy valentines day.

Hope you all have a day filled with love!  I go all out on this holiday - it's one of my faves!  

Sunday, February 8, 2015

sunshine after the rain.

If nothing else, I'm good at coming up with lame titles.  Anyway, wow!  It's been a month since my last post. There really hasn't been too much to report - it's Steve's busy season at work, (which is such a blessing, but man do we miss him on his late nights) so we haven't been doing anything too crazy around here. A park trip here, a play date there.  My days look pretty similar to each other, and you'd think that would get old, but somehow, some way, I never tire of getting up every morning ready for a new day of filling up sippy cups, changing diapers, folding laundry, and playing a lot of Old Maid.  I'm constantly reminded how fast these little girls of mine are growing up, and I'm just enjoying these days of having nowhere to be, and just getting to run our own schedules and taking as much time as we need to get out of jammies and into real clothes.

We've had a pretty rainy week, (which California needs!  Desperately!) and one day after it rained all day long, the sun came out in the early evening, and Aubrey said, "Can we PLEASE play outside now?  It looks like Summer outside!"  Even though it was sopping wet outside, I couldn't say no to that poor girl who had been cooped up inside the house for days.

We spend a lot of time outside. (weather permitting)  Chalk, bubbles, and their train roller coaster is the recipe to their happiness!

A rare sight - Kate smiling and looking at the camera.  She's so cute I can hardly take it.

The puddles on the cement make a big splash as she came down her roller coaster.  She thought it was pretty awesome - like Splash Mountain at Disneyland.

Aubrey helping Kate wash her hands after getting wet chalk all over them.  My little mother hen.