I won't lie to you all... life with two is challenging. I remember thinking having one was hard. Now that seems like a cake walk! The hardest part of having two is balancing time & trying to keep everyone happy. Sometimes, one kid is just going to have to cry & whine until you can "get to them". I'm kind of getting it down to a science - as soon as I know Kate is going to need to eat, I make sure Aubrey has everything she could possibly need during the next half hour at her fingertips - toys, snacks, a sippy cup, books, etc. Kate eats a LOT. Something that I didn't expect would happen when I was pregnant. (I mean, duh I knew newborns eat a lot, but I mean a LOT. And often.) She gets hungry about every 90 minutes during the day. None of that easy 2-3 hours business that you read in the baby books. Also, from about 5 pm to 11 pm she is extremely fussy and wants to nurse constantly. She eats, is happy for maybe 15 minutes, gets fussy, we try to soothe her, & repeat process. I'm literally camped out on the couch for that 6 hour period! (Tell me what newborn is awake for 6+ hours in a row by the way?!) Luckily my husband is home most nights so he can take care of Aubrey and dinner while this is going on. Fridays & Saturdays he works late, which makes it difficult, but I know this soon will pass. There are plenty of 5 minute chaotic time periods throughout our days, but dozens more sweet, joyful ones to make up for the hard ones.
With one you still have time to shower, get ready, clean the house, go online, grocery shop, etc. (At least for me) It's slowly settling in that Kate is a high needs baby & these things are going to have to be put on hold for a while at this time in my life. I'll admit for about two days in a row that was hard to accept. I cannot tell you how much I just want to go to Target right now! Things like taking a joy trip to Target to look at Valentine's Day goodies seems lightyears away. The past few days I think I have finally "accepted" it. And I'm okay with it. In a month things will be easier and I will wonder where the time has gone. I will look at my two growing babies and cry at how extremely big they are. Right now they need me, and they need me at home. This is the job I signed up for. It really is true when they say being a stay at home mom is the hardest job in the world. But, it's just as true when they say it's the best & most rewarding. I won't lie - even though I get cabin fever sometimes, it feels really good to be needed by these two special little girls. Aubrey needs me to help her stack blocks & read stories to her, & Kate needs me for constant comfort & nourishment. And quite honestly? These things are so much more fulfilling and satisfying than any Target trip.
Sorry this post was rambly - (okay, all my posts are unorganized & rambly, who am I kidding?) Here are a few pictures of my beauties! Kate is over three weeks old & Aubrey will be two in a month. Break my heart why don't you!